I am not very good at keeping up with my blog, which is quite ironic considering all the things I would like to blog about.
My mind speaks to me in narrative form as if every thought swirling in my mind is meant for pen and paper. I assure you not all of my thoughts are worthy of being written and preserved, but I certainly have a writer's mind. Which is exactly why I went to college and got a degree in communications. I intended whole-heartedly to chase the art of journalism with every ounce of my being. Of course, this was to be after serving some time as a Peace Corps Volunteer where I would learn about a part of my world I had never known, grow my skill set, and mature as an individual. I had big plans for my future. Then, with only months of my senior year at college remaining, the unthinkable happened. The one thing I had been avoiding like the plaque; I met a boy, a rather adorable biologist named Russell. Low and behold, I decided to chase HIM instead. Luckily for me, he did not run too far :)
So here we are. I am married to the love of my life, and I am so thankful. We have a lovely home, two bratty dogs, 6 chickens and a yearly garden. My life is blessed beyond measure. However, it is nothing like I imagined it would be. Who am I? What am I doing? These thoughts jumble my mind often. My plans and goals changed the moment I met Russell. Traveling the world and chasing down the stories America needs to hear suddenly seemed... well.. lonely. It was not a dream meant for someone in love, therefore the dream changed.
I have tried some new things, some of which have worked and some of which God has closed the door on. I guess I am still trying to find out exactly what God intends for me to be doing, now that He has changed my plans and the desires of my heart so drastically. It is confusing at times, exciting at others.
I am a wife. I am a homemaker. I am my husband's helpmeet. This is not something I ever planned to be, and it is a role I am still learning to become efficient at. I am learning daily. I embrace it. I love it.
However, I still have a skill set. I am a talented communicator, and I know God will open doors for these skills to be utilized in a way that gives Him glory. I often ponder the idea of writing children's books, and perhaps someday I will! As for now, I am enjoying the blessings God has given me today. I love having the ability to be crafty and tend for my home while my husband works. I love that we are building a home and a relationship that will someday (God willing) be the kind of environement that we see fit to raise our children in. I truly love all of it, but it was not the plan.
The house is tidied, laundry is going, and I am about to sit down with a hot cup of coffee and read a few chapters of A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens.
My health is improving daily and our marriage is growing with each new moment we share as a couple! I have no idea where this love will take us, but I know we will go there together and where ever we go, God will have paved the way. For now I will sit back and watch God's beautiful masterpiece unfold!
